everybody says i am fine

i think of my map of the world to be the best
and i guss every 1 thinks in the same manner
cluching the elephants tail missig the forest for the tree
if all we can sense is change eg acceleration and not velocity
that implies our moods are a function of our perception and i need to take lessons in how to communicate

home alone

post dengue i have stopped giong to the lib which gives me more free time to waste coz no stdz at home so either its net or its books
laslo polgar, shaolin ,and joseph skinner
the connecting link is the effect of envoirenment on people
contd...

time travel in brain

By Daniel Gilbert & Randy Buckner

What are you doing when you aren’t doing anything at all? If you said “nothing,” then you have just passed a test in logic and flunked a test in neuroscience. When people perform mental tasks—adding numbers, comparing shapes, identifying faces—different areas of their brains become active, and brain scans show these active areas as brightly colored squares on an otherwise dull gray background. But researchers have recently discovered that when these areas of our brains light up, other areas go dark. This dark network (which comprises regions in the frontal, parietal and medial temporal lobes) is off when we seem to be on, and on when we seem to be off. If you climbed into an MRI machine and lay there quietly, waiting for instructions from a technician, the dark network would be as active as a beehive. But the moment your instructions arrived and your task began, the bees would freeze and the network would fall silent. When we appear to be doing nothing, we are clearly doing something. But what?

The answer, it seems, is time travel.

The human body moves forward in time at the rate of one second per second whether we like it or not. But the human mind can move through time in any direction and at any speed it chooses. Our ability to close our eyes and imagine the pleasures of Super Bowl Sunday or remember the excesses of New Year’s Eve is a fairly recent evolutionary development, and our talent for doing this is unparalleled in the animal kingdom. We are a race of time travelers, unfettered by chronology and capable of visiting the future or revisiting the past whenever we wish. If our neural time machines are damaged by illness, age or accident, we may become trapped in the present. Alzheimer’s disease, for instance, specifically attacks the dark network, stranding many of its victims in an endless now, unable to remember their yesterdays or envision their tomorrows.

Why did evolution design our brains to go wandering in time? Perhaps it’s because an experience is a terrible thing to waste. Moving around in the world exposes organisms to danger, so as a rule they should have as few experiences as possible and learn as much from each as they can. Although some of life’s lessons are learned in the moment (“Don’t touch a hot stove”), others become apparent only after the fact (“Now I see why she was upset. I should have said something about her new dress”). Time travel allows us to pay for an experience once and then have it again and again at no additional charge, learning new lessons with each repetition. When we are busy having experiences—herding children, signing checks, battling traffic—the dark network is silent, but as soon as those experiences are over, the network is awakened, and we begin moving across the landscape of our history to see what we can learn—for free.

Animals learn by trial and error, and the smarter they are, the fewer trials they need. Traveling backward buys us many trials for the price of one, but traveling forward allows us to dispense with trials entirely. Just as pilots practice flying in flight simulators, the rest of us practice living in life simulators, and our ability to simulate future courses of action and preview their consequences enables us to learn from mistakes without making them. We don’t need to bake a liver cupcake to find out that it is a stunningly bad idea; simply imagining it is punishment enough. The same is true for insulting the boss and misplacing the children. We may not heed the warnings that prospection provides, but at least we aren’t surprised when we wake up with a hangover or when our waists and our inseams swap sizes. The dark network allows us to visit the future, but not just any future. When we contemplate futures that don’t include us—Will the NASDAQ be up next week? Will Hillary run in 2008?—the dark network is quiet. Only when we move ourselves through time does it come alive.

Perhaps the most startling fact about the dark network isn’t what it does but how often it does it. Neuroscientists refer to it as the brain’s default mode, which is to say that we spend more of our time away from the present than in it. People typically overestimate how often they are in the moment because they rarely take notice when they take leave. It is only when the environment demands our attention—a dog barks, a child cries, a telephone rings—that our mental time machines switch themselves off and deposit us with a bump in the here and now. We stay just long enough to take a message and then we slip off again to the land of Elsewhen, our dark networks awash in light.

part of a system

where roads are clogged more then the a cabg candidate
where corruption inefficiency is rampant
infrastructure infantile
an ever widening gap between haves and have nots
the ones in power are busy living it up
the ones withiut spend there lives clawing there way up
hats off to u who go away to greener pastures
hats off to u who work to make this system a better place
but some say altruism is only an ego defence mechanism
still if u plan to stay in india teach a hanful of kids
how to read write and most importantly think and see the world as it is and not the way media or our culture tells us it
hopefully in time things will get better

e motion and tho u ght

a day spent deconstructing concepts trying to fathom how this body works and that all thats beautiful is just collagen and ach and gaba
the storms of passion just serotonin and gaba
thers a red pill n a blue pill but the telomeres keep on shortning
wake up think and feel its u who give meaning to events
conditioning or a fresh look
gud nyt

an ounce of life

mind is the tool we use to interpret the world
there is no absolute reality what is red to u may b green to a red green color blind 1
so its not the world but our interpretion on wih we lead our lives
sm1 out of a badd relation ship says all gals/boys are crap life is shit
sm1 in love says life is bliss

coming to the point how do u interpret life
time is seconds distance is meters what is the unit to measure life?
is not money for sure
is it the experiences that we have had?
or the love that we have experienced
but 1 ting is for sure if ur days are routine u are wasting ur life
2 tings a)stop being absent minded b)meditate
if u may and go out get in a little adventure even if u get a few bruises
itl b ok
go get ur ounces

a beautiful day

woke up beautiful drive
good friends
lecture in nice audi
sm 1 to lok forward for
lot of learning
sm intrnet
a good song

far from a house in hills wid a fireplace and holding hands gazing at stars and that face that makes earth stop

cal me enkephlin junkie all u want to but love and lot of cash or was it lot of love and cash too sleepy to make out is all 1 needs in life n for the after life 1s meditate for 6 months n tell me how it was

i vow

also ill do pro bono work n teach kids

3 months to go

90 days for 21 subjects
seems like i have my uni 2ro n still half of slybus to go
all i have is some luck some logic
and wat seems to b a drive to do it
lets c how tings turn out for 1c i have no backups

a leaf and august breeze

floating in air with nowhere in sight
limbic system on a strike
so no emotions no learning no new memories
and a mixed bag of flashbacks
of those days when time was a renuable resource hope my next door neighbour
and endorphins in my artries instead of blood
i mean writing
when the heart skpis a beat
and it flutters like a dove
gyton says its sympthetic stimulation
and i tink its love

coming from a guy who used to avoid course books like wasps
ah those were great days indeed
aur ab main aur amit ashish aksar ye baaten karte hain
ki tho my mind is with the mcqs but my heart seems to have gone on a walk on those trails of wih i used to dream and sometimes
still do

picking the loose threads

well theres is little to write as every day is almoast the same as the last 1 with new tings to learn and when i go to a mountain top with clouds flowing qcross my face with endless greenery streching ahead of me i have to contend with closing my eyes and imagining it
the best i can do out of my mind is drive at 100 with rain drops striking the indshield and saathiya in background
life is a mix of finding and synthesising meaning and happiness
p.s. harry potter 6 is nice

sprint or marathon

the dark night

saina nehwal won indonasian open ; gr8 going
not much to rite coz have tons to read
i wonder why i do it?
running the rat race
cramming useful stuff n shit alike
not stratgising at al
too confused at the mmt but still running
tink ill sit n take 3 long breaths bfr i start running again

my heroes

swami vivekananda - realised advaita + gr8 intellect
da vinchi - astounding intellect with amazing output despite his procrastination
socrates - his quest for truth and conviction in his beliefs for wih he willingly darnk poison
house,holmes,dr bell--same guy for keen mind and again love of truth
buddha-compassion
bhagat singh , 300-amazing valor
kasparov alekhine-sheer dominance over their chosen arena
lance armstrong --gr8 comeback
contd.....

saying gudbye

well makin friends and loosing touch with them is a common place occourance
the reasons can be
station aa gaya (train journeys-- this 1 s rare)
got busy
moved outa town
some misundrstandins
idiopathic
accidents and misshaps

and where there used to b a breathing pulsating person whom we percived as a timepass a reource an inspiration depending on the frame of our mind is left a void of our time or a void in our psyce or nothing depending again on the strength to wih we had binded our selves wid the person

and tho i am much tempted to write the pain of losing sm1 u luv can send u in a bottomless pit of despair so da soul shrivels from lonliness and te hole in the heart tends to suck u but
its bull shit
the point being mind has a tendency of sticking to patterns
some more than the others and parheps this coupled with our dependence is responsible or the pain of saying goodbye
again some people are great at letting tings go
some suck at it

along with dancing , quitting procratinating this is the third thing that i have not yet accomplished and thATS COZ
i dont care bout the objects of 1st 2
and i care a little bit too much when it comes to third

right brain

life's is varitey
u get to se so many emotions so many sensory perceptions and tho its tempting to launch into a discussion of wats real and matrix stuff but samantic hairsplitting is not todays agenda

have u ever been low in life and next mmt u get a good news and wham there u go the current of emotions blowing n the pposit direction
well
since childhood i always was in love wid music n tho not proficient in any forms i derive great pleasure out of it

luking for something pure like an element in a sea of compounds but again elements are to b purified coz nature runs toward ompound

wen people who were around u for long leaave thers a hollow left
the mind trying to run on the same ruts
its not much diffrent from asking for a valentino burger but much intense in nature and much more complex

the HAPPINESS PARADOX

coming from a group of people
who detest studying
and love talking to people
and having bunked a sessional once coz i had to read a novel and talk to a friend
i find is strangly amusing that i m happy studying while its really hard to spend my free time happily while keeping the same level of joy intact
i guess its coz studying is purposeful and has a meaning while whiling my time on orkut is kinda sad coz is devoid of meaning
so find some purpose and be involved in someting and ull find little more than a quantum of solace

one moment please

8.17 am
munirka,delhi
my eyes are still heavey owing to lack of sleep as i try to cross a road while the sun is climbing the sky
all i have is a moment in wih i need to run across as a car shoots past
all we have is a moment thats all we HAVE GOT
all the tings to b done dreams hopes are in this moment
i can sit back relax njoi sleep and laze while watching it go away like an old friend walkin down the road or i can seize it strike a friendship and play with it till death does us part
in life there is no single big choice
its made up of a million small ones the key is to know what u want
((it mAY b someting as simple as fulfilling a craving or may b finding fullfillment ))
and know how it is like instead of mere dreaming
the key is to act
carpe diem(seize the moment)

turning a new leaf

this 1 is bout changing old habits
changin thots comes easy to me but i have had a tuff time changin the way i act
so how to do it?
hABIT IN QUESTION ---CRAMMING FOR PG ENTERANCE
Factors anti-- inertia of rest
not enuf belief in the task
mundane nature and too many distractions


factors pro--- a little voice at back of head read conscience
diagnosing and treating is fun n in order to do that i must slog


so this is my analysis of my habit of pocrastinating stds
lets c how soon i turn over a new leaf

doing what u love

1.21 am
gurgaon

my mood- 4/10 brought on by a discussion on doing what u love
alchemist is a lovely book which tells u bout following ur dream and the lines


if u really want something the whole universe conspires to help u

are among the most beautiful ones that i ve come across
i dont think they are true but beautiful neverthless

i digressed coming back to the point i was takin to a friend and we hardly see any 1 followin their dream n passion
we rationalise give excuses but i havent met 1 yet who has wqalked the path
if u know 1 let me know
why r we trading meaning in our lives for rationalisations its a bad deal

sm1 said stay hungry stay foolish u gotta find what u love
so keep lukin n 1c u find it make sure u stay wid it

persuing happyness _2

25 percent of the ones who read this page told me to go slow on metaphores and symbolism coz
they find it hard to comprehend/crap
and since the purpose of language is to communicate ideas ill try to be more effective hence forth
since most of our lives is based on perception the way we see things and interpret them
is there any way that we can use this fact to our advantage
pain is sensory and emotional
logic says so must be pleasure,so playin wid perception and belifs can bring us some amount of joy
and though happiness is something more i mean u can b in pain and still happy and having pleasure but sad
but avoiding unneccesry pain and embracing legitimate suffring(reading the night before exam even when 1 has fever or doing some chore that though inherently not pleasent to makes some 1 lse happier or helps some one)is essential for growth
and in growth we can fin some degree of solace

persuit of happiness

a wise guy called plato said bout 2.5 k years ago that all humanbeings operate wid a primary motive of achieving happiness
some chinese guy said it conists of having
.something to hope for
.some one to love
.and some work to do
which though erey vague narrows the feild a bit
but all those of u who have seen matrix may switch ur atttention to the scene when a member of morpheus's crew strikes a bargain with agent smith
and trades mundane reality with a life of a muvie star and bliss

for those who havent seen it theres a choice between living the life in tune with shared reality or opting for thots or bliefs that though unreal make us happy
to further illustrate it we can take an example of a boy who imagins himself to be smarter or more righteous than he actually is or to be contd....gotta go rite now plz post ur comments so that i 9 sm1 s reading

goethe's pearl

until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself then Providence moves too.

~Goethe~

a dream half drawn

on this journey wich is a serene trail at times and an expressway at others
comes various side roads
these are our chances to walk on them and c wat life has to offer
they may be termed hobbies r dreams r distractions
so there is a choice to go straight or take a detour every ic a while
heart says yes a lot of times
but again there are people running on the expressway heading in the rat race
so it complicates the choice
on one hand there is a fear of leaving the comfort zone, of possible hurt ,ridicule,and worst of all heart break
on the other and a hope of living the dream
very few take the plunge
fewer persist and the lucky ones get to fulfill their dreams
but THERS a little twist in the tale
if u love wat uve set to do and truely care bout the dream every step that u take is blissfull
and even a dream half drawn is better then slogging on the highway on an ego drive
and tho i m not old enuf to say its all part of a big plan
i can vouch for the beauty of the litlle strolls on the roads less travelled

au revoir

in a forest some where a leaf falls slowly
moonlight is reflected from surface of a lake
a new life comes to this world and an old 1 departs and
god or randomness works their brush and paint the spectre called life

i m sitting in a bus wondering one more day and collage is over
and like two drops of rain caught in winds going in opposite directions we will end up probbably in different states or countries
we meet share some life and move on our paths each running our little race pining for money love prestige and a thousand other desires with each breath an asset each heart beat an ally to fulfill our dreams
a child dreamed of finding love and happiness
keep the dream alive

figuring it all

"i see far coz i stand on the shoulders of giants"
is the answer of a certain brilliant, misanthropic ,homophillic bloke(isac newton)
but sometimes i wonder that an average joe spends a lifetime knowin a trifle bout life;
world ;and sadly himself
a look at thought's of socrates pluto n descartes amng legions of othrs evoke amusment awe and a yearning to figure what it all means
we humans exist on planes of consciouness
with a spectrum where each sense, each experience
n thought
gives a diffrent meanin to our lives n to lives around us and the world
there is a sea of things to be known an ocean of experinces to be felt a galaxy of things to do
it wud have been a great game except the idea of mortality the ephemeral nature of existance that provokes us to make choice gud n bad
and right and wrong
but is it a zero sum game is what we all wonder

genisis